OMG!!!!
It seems like every night is a horrible night for me. I just found out that I'm going to more days of High Focus/Partial Program in Nj. I want to cut, racing thoughts, I'm throwing up again on purpose, I tried beating myself, I'm having a delusion on and off, I have HIGH anxiety about school right now, alot of pressure with it, panic attacks, anger issues, and i have paranoia at night. grrr...it's been almost five years...and life cant get better for me..yeahh..what the hell do i do?!!?!? idk, have no clue..i need an emergency med change or some help ASAP because i really can't take myself mentally anymore...ahhhh!!!

deb