Thread: PTSD?
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Old Dec 08, 2003, 12:54 PM
geekgirl geekgirl is offline
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I haven't been on the boards lately... but I'm having problems coping with the fallout of my divorce. I can't sleep well again, I'm always anxious, feeling angry, and crying again for no reason. Been having nightmares of being abandoned... and then I wake up and think why... I AM alone.

The period before my divorce was really hard on me. My ex pulled a suicide stunt. Left me a note to ask me to tell the woman he was was special. HIs grandmother died and he fought with me all during the furneral over a watch he lost, that she gave him just DAYS after we separated. He blamed me for a broken water pump on our house when I asked him to help with it... that turned into a nightmare of an argument when he refused to leave his girlfriend to help me out.

I feel like I don't know what to do right now. I'm feeling so down and so unable to trust anyone again. I will take a few steps forward and start feeling better... not great, not better... but at least positive that I'm getting over this. And then... BAM! It hits me again.

I always wondered if you could have PTSD after severe dysfunctional relationship problems? I don't mean anything violent like a murder, but I keep remembering all of the awful things my ex said and did to me now.

Also... what are good tips to deal with this during the holidays? I know I'll be alone most likely on Christmas... and I'm really beginning to feel lonely for what I used to have. The family, the marriage, the home... my life has changed so drastically over a short few years.