Hi, I'm a fairly newly diagnosed Bi Polar, and I only know one thing FOR ABSOLUTE SURE so far.....I will be most DEFINITELY re-gifting this b**ch at the Christmas party! If it were transmissible, I'd TRANSMIT ina MINUTE....(of course, only if I can get rid of it myself by giving it to someone else!)

So here's what I've been put on:

Adderall 20mg 3 x per day
(1st med tried, increased focus & energy to a degree, been taking approx 3 years)

Cymbalta 120mg daily
(1st Anti-D added, who knows if it's doing anything! Been taking for over a year)

Lamictal 200mg daily
(Added to the above regimen after a couple of months of very unstable moods, been taking for almost a year)

Wellbutrin 300mg daily
(Just added yesterday b/c of the extremely severe depressive episode I'm dealing with now.)

Ambien 10mg @ bedtime
(Been taking this approx 2 years and it's 'bout run it's course I think, arrrgghh!)

Klonopin 0.5mcg as needed for anxiety
(Just got changed to this from xanax on the rec of my T, damn her!)

So I'm obviously taking pills for breakfast, but would take twice as many if it made some positive change in this depressive state I'm in. I've been treated for plain ole plain ole depression for almost 20 years, but this current depression is the worst I've ever experienced. (Including having those ~ideas~ that shall not be named, for the first time in my LIFE!) this is some scary *****!

Please, anyone with a similar situation, how does my cocktail look? My pdoc isn't very communicative/creative, so I have to ask EVERYTHING that I can think to ask, AND make suggestions myself if I want anything changed. (No lectures, I KNOW I should find a new one ) Anyway, I'd love to hear from my fellow Bi-Po's, esp those of you with MAJOR Depressive episodes that last for weeks and weeks...

What're you taking and how well is it working? What kind of therapy have you tried and LIKED? A recent therapist suggested finding an EA meeting. While I'm absolutely sure the EA folks are just the bestest supportive group, as a kid of a Twelve Step obsessed recovering alcoholic Dad, the EA option will really and truly have to be a last resort.
Sorry for all the rambling and ranting....it's 244am and guess what? I CANT SLEEP