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Hey, I'm just feeling lonely as usual. I have friends but I'm not close to n e of them so I really only have my mom and sister to talk to but my mom's very busy and I'm afraid to talk about n e thing negative with my sister because she has chronic dysthymia and generalized anxiety disorder with ocd-like tendencies and we're very worried about her and I just don't want to push her over the edge u know? Sorry, I'm getting my degree is psychology, that's how I know all these crazy labels. N e way, I guess I just feel very different than everyone else and have very little in common with most people and I think I come off as aggressive or standoffish but it's a learned behavior. Everyone in my family is antisocial and I'm not looking to be well sought after or n e thing, cuz that would be horribly annoying, but I would just like a best friend, and/or a boyfriend. Yet, in my case it's rather difficult. No one wants to talk to the woman who weighs 297 lbs. I've lost 60 lbs this year due to a break up (from a total psycho/loser) and hard work but it's a long, long road until my goal weight and I'm just afraid I may have to travel it alone which will make my accomplishment only bitter-sweet......I'm just disheartened by all the superficiality of the world.
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