Hi everyone, I had company yesterday from a guy online I been talking to for a while. He came down to meet me. So far as I know we liked each other. My mother even like him. Today I get a message from him that he's got bad news. I text him back asking him what was the bad news. He hasn't responded yet. I am thinking he doesn't want to date me. Which I was like alright if he doesn't I can move on. I just hate being cut off with no answer.
I just don't know why I have in my head I need a guy. Somewhere deep down that I feel like I will go crazy if I am not in a relationship. I see people together and I feel alone. It's like everyone but me is happy. But I know too that I don't have to be with no one to be happy. I always have the dreams that I would want to get married have someday. It's like every guy I meet wants just sex or married or just a player. Sometimes I wonder what is wrong with me. What more does guy want from me. I am caring, sweet, intelligent and I will spoil them if they wanted me to. Whatever I do its not good enough. I don't know what else to do. It makes me feel awful. My problem is whenever I meet a a guy I attend to fall for one. I can't help it. I don't know if I am moving to fast or what. Makes me feel bad about myself.