zooropa, I'm *so* happy it went well. I was thinking of you yesterday The hug sounds really special and it's great that she offered you something you'd been wanting anyway.

I love granite's idea of it marking a new phase of therapy rather than necessarily the beginning of the end.

I'm sorry you were feeling so vulnerable last night and hope you've managed to sleep. I do understand the need to stay home and just 'be' and take it all in and recover.

I wonder whether there's a way to do both- stay engaged with your daily life and obligations while staying in touch with your feelings? I try this when I'm feeling brave, and it might be something as simple as just checking in with what I'm feeling as I head to work/uni, at lunchtime, and as I go home. I use a mindfulness of emotion exercise on my ipod to keep me on track, and then try to just sit with whatever I've noticed for a bit.

Can also relate to wanting T to follow you around saying 'breathe... and breathe...'. I've actually got her doing that on my ipod... the problem is remembering to listen to it! Another idea I've heard is actually writing a big 'B' on your hand so you see it every time you look down.

Sending you good wishes for a good night's sleep and a manageable day tomorrow.