Mixed episode I'd imagine. Usually followed by by true mania or depression. Speak to your pdoc ASAP as your meds are not helping.
You're experiencing parts of mania and depression simultaneously and it can be dangerous. The "air axe" part is the mania - you are indestructible (possible psychosis) and the crying the depression part. I don't in the least envy you, and luckily I only had a minor version a few days ago, but you really need to be careful, need support and your meds tweaked
Thinking of you