Sugarhorse,
I can not believe this is the text you received. I am so sorry dear! I think that your therapist may have an issue with setting boundaries and limits. From what I have gathered and correct me if I am wrong. It sounds like you had pretty much free liberty to text and call before and now she has said that will not work for her anymore. If she would have been more clear on her boundaries from the beginning (which is her job by the way) you would not be in this situation. It also sounds to me that you may need to transition to another t that is able to give you more support outside of session. It sounds like you have some pretty serious suicide or parasuicide ideations. I hope that you can come up with a safety plan. I had my husband lock up my drugs in the safe and he kept the key when I was not in control of my impulsive sui times. Also someone had written to you about putting together a safety plan with specific actions step by step and phone numbers listed. I have also done this and found it very helpful in times of a crisis. Have you checked into a DBT treatment program? It may be helpful to you regaurding your parasuicide urges. I sincerely hope that you can keep yourself safe and find others to help you on your recovery journey. Remember you can always come here to PC for support as well. I wish you the best. Please keep us posted on what your t and you decide. and just for the record.........................that text was totally unexeptable in my opinion. hugs to you