oh my..now i am really worried...im so stupid for missing the appointments..i got a babysitter for tomorrow but now she caught the flu!! i dont have anyone else available to watch him...6 - 2 hour sessions once a week and i had to wait until now to find a sitter and the poor girl ends up really sick...now im screwed...no money for transportation /bad weather,cant walk that far with the baby in the rain /no sitter /a so-called boyfriend who threatened to commit suicide again today /my 12 year old wants to move with her dad (i miss my home too,cant blame her,if i could pull my ***** together maybe she wouldnt want to leave,i cant offer her the life we use to have right now,and im sure all the stress here makes her want to go) .. god please give me strength not to lose it...sorry for ranting i just dont know what to do