Okay so I feel like the worlds biggest incompetent idiot. It really stinks that I am afraid to open my mail. It is not good that by the time I am home from work I am spent.

In laws came home from a cruise last night and called. I told Mother about the accident and how we had to pay the damage. She got very quiet and obviously upset. I feel like a freakin failure in life. I need to start having all of my funds direct deposited into a bill payor only account and live off hubbie's income. At my age to still need financial help from aging mommy and daddy is rediculous. Hubby plans on asking them for help to buy oil. I say we freeze first. I hate "NEEDING" anything from anyone.

I went to retrieve some insulation from freecycle tonight so we can insulate our garage under the house better. When I came home daughter was sick, crashed after I dropped her off. Low thyroid and on replacement, says she's freezing. She leaves for long term ocd treatment on Monday. Of course my mother in law had to call the pharmacy and give her credit account info as we don't have a credit card.

My baby is a brave soul and if she can do the residential ocd treatment, I can auto plan all regular payments so the insurance stuff never happens again. I am so weird. I can do other people's stuff all day, and then I come home.......