Thanks guys. I made it through. I really don't (can't) talk about it right now. Might later. The stuff was intense but T did something that just was not the thing to do when I was that vulnerable. If you read my post where I mention him looking at the laptop and how I was able to forgive - well same thing but this time him replying - TO SOMEONE ELSE - typing something - urrr!! I cant go inot it now but sent him an email where that protector part of me is beyond mad.