I want to give you some hugs. It seems like your T thinks she's doing the right thing, but there are plenty of Ts who will let you contact them as often as you need to, or at least more often then in an emergency! I think it's worth finding a T who meets your needs better. It's YOUR life, and you deserve the care you need. Maybe tough love is good for some people, but if it doesn't seem to help you, then please find someone else.