Yes, I have been in treatment and on medication for years. The medication helps a great deal with stabilizing my over all mood and my anxiety in general (i.e. I can drive now and don't freak completely out when in the store anymore etc etc) but I still struggle with interpersonal issues. I have a very small social interaction time before I start to feel anxiety. I don't do small talk well. I have to have notice to leave the house and when i do I have to be back home within an hour or two or I start to feel a great deal of pressure and tension which makes me hard to be around. If you read Sane1's response is frighteningly descriptive of what I struggle with.

I can't help but to wonder if I have some other abnormality I have not identified yet. I have Bi-Polar Disorder, deal with GAD and Social Anxiety Disorder and Agoraphobia and recently I have started to think that all my failed attempts to live a more social life and failing to do so has developed into PTSD. I am afraid to fail at getting another job or going back into therapy because I lose the stability I have managed to achieve when I have such negative responses to my attempts to stretch myself some. This most recent first session really was a shock. I went in hoping to restart therapy so I can try to go back to school and get out of my comfort zone and have a bit more of a support team and it went so poorly. It sucks because I am intelligent so people expect more out of me. I have come a long way so all my friends and family ask me to advocate for people who are struggling but it all feels like a lie when I know on the inside I am just sheltered, not better. I know my limitations and try not to push myself too hard because I am a perfectionist but still I want more for me and my family. Thanks for taking the time to ask though Blue.