i added back my ex. unblocked. then deleted but left it unblocked and then i got anxious so i added him back PLUS his friend and now im just hiding the fact that i have them added at all by avoiding opening the msn messenger thingy.

i know i shouldn't add him back, and i know that either a.) he's blocked me so this wont matter b.) he'll try talking to me but be mean and humiliate me with his gf. or c.) be nice and talk to me like a normal person (HIGHLY UNLIKELY). a and b are most likely. c is what i wanna happen. actually i dont really WANT to talk to him at all, so i dont know why i even bothered adding him..

my emotions are being confusing again