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Oct 28, 2010, 01:16 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2009
Location: SoCal
Posts: 4
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Hi...
Thought I would share my story. It is one of hope lost...then hope found.
I had Major Depression, Gen. Anxiety, and PTSD for over 14 years. I had gone through violent physical abuse as a child until I left home at 18 yrs. At 30 yrs old, I went through a particularly nasty divorce. Then at age 40, I had to be a whistle blower for a sexual predator at the school I taught at. (the repercussions are STILL felt)
I had never dealt with the abuse or divorce and the situation at my school brought me low, my self confidence and identity gone. I did what I was taught to do in my family~~block it out. The problem is that in blocking out those feelings, it had a devastating effect on me being able to feel the GOOD feelings (all the way down to my heart). I have been hospitalized 23 times for suicide attempts (15) or suicidal feelings. Most were for 3-4 days at the VA, but some were for 30-90 day stays at private mental hospitals throughout the US. NOTHING WORKED!!
Then...the last place I went had a group that I had not had before. It was called Trauma Therapy. It was for 6 weeks, one complete day a week, and only 4-6 people were in the group. Unfortunately, I qualified, but it was the key to my success.
The therapy was based on having to relive the trauma and the same emotions that I experienced the first time. It was VERY difficult, very painful, but I would do it all again if needed. What was so strange for me was that the success didn't come until about 2 weeks after finishing the therapy. I was just going through the day and I suddenly realized that I wasn't haunted by my past trauma. It was finally in the past. What I believe happened was that it took a couple weeks for my sub-conscience to fully process all the therapy, feelings, etc. Whew!
Why aren't more therapists trained in Trauma Therapy and why aren't more of them using this? Not sure...maybe it's not the current pop psychology...I don't know. But think about giving this a chance. After more than 14 years of a wasted life, I haven't had depression for 2 years. I'm starting up a new business, and I'm in love again with my husband. Are all my problems gone? Of course not. But there are no more symptoms of my depression, anxiety, or PTSD. Amazing...
From my heart to yours...
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