Chris - i honestly got the feeling she wasn't in a position to listen to me. i told her i was having sui ideations, but she looked past that. i was not ready to follow through with the process, but i know that what i did was essentially SI. i needed to do something to make the pain go away. and still i couldnt slepe properly - took me 3 hours after the tabs to finally fall asleep, and the only result was really impaired motor skills, and me sleeping like a log. and slightly drowsy this AM