i think the ER is the only place that may take you serious.
i'm sorry to say, but pdocs and T's are just paid professionals, who earn a lot of money for you to see them for a set amount of time.
I am worried i'm about to be committed to, if I don't sort myself out. and being bipolar, it's not normally a case of just sorting myself out...
PLease be safe and let us know how you are