I've never cut myself; I've over-medicated and felt terrible and I've tried to OD - that's my form of SI.

But recently I've been thinking more and more of SI. I suffer from BP II, (My T thinks maybe even BP I, as I am very intense in my depression; but I've never been manic, i think!)
Anyway - during my depression I can get sui thoughts.
I'm now thinking I want to rather divert those to SI, a kind of physical release of the mental anguish. I'd start on places that I can cover up.
I know you will all tell me not to do it, but I really feel I'm at that place where I need to...
I cannot take the mental anguish anymore, and don't think I'm ready to walk the path of OD just yet.