I am not really sure if this will end up being a thread or not since i just got a big warning full of codes in my original attempt to make this thread?

Anyway, I am on Social Security Disability and am on State Medicaid which is currently paying my prescription drugs as of now. I am under no choice of my own being switched to a new 'program' of prescription drugs through the new program of Medicare since I am not totally on Medicaid and recieve both Medicare part A and B along with State Medicaid.

I know that I have until December the 31st to 'Choose' a Medicare drug program to take over my prescription drug coverage as the new 'program' of Medicare is going into effect on Jan 1, 2006 and State Medicaid will no longer provide me with prescription drug coverage. Well, it will I believe I am told still provide me with coverage on the Benzodiazapam Drug Class which the Medicare program will not cover being the Generic Valium I have taken for the last 13 years.

I am to 'Choose' a plan now, only no plan or even any type or details of such plan exist in my knowlege for me to even 'choose' from or not been provided to me. I have a Case Manager through Community Mental Health who agrees with me that it is difficult to 'choose' the plan that best fits my needs, as they will choose one for me if I do not choose one before December 31, 2005, until I can make the Decision.

At this point, I have no detailed plan to even choose from, yet it is made to sound as if I even have choices. I am totally in the dark recieving conflicting 'mailings' and 'brocures' from the US Government and the State Government over what the Heck my Darn options are. I am in one letter even told one has already been chosen for me and I should be hearing more about this in the month of October. I have recieved nothing other than litature on different vague wording and vague details all the while supposed to not worry even though I am going to be covered by the convience of this program from Medicare. I am thinking now I am told by the State Medcaid Worker to do something on the lines of Medicare part D?

Ia m already mentally, physically and emotinally confused on a daily basis and now this. Total change over coming in less than 60 days in which I still have no detailed, or concrete spelled out in terms which do not simply ramble in circles worse than I do in my own impaired verbal communication or lack of skills.

I take 21 prescription medications and have not a clue to what will be covered other than knowing now Valium is not covered at all by Medicare Prescription Program regardless. I have no idea about the other's, the Miralax, the Luvox, the Morphine Sulfate, the Lasix, the and the list goes on recently diagnosed with OCD to my lovely list of diagnosis' and now all this total chaos of a program supposed to benifit me, only stressing me into the most feared of by me of all : UNCERTAINTY nothing to reassure me of what the Hell is going on with any one and being shifted from place to place being ran in circles over how or what meds will be covered beside my Valium which Is not yet I know not how to apply for the State who says they will pay the Valium which the Medicare will not, Unfortionatally one of my personalitys has hidden the letter from the Medicaid office telling me they will pay for my Valium ( I do believe there was at one time such a letter in exsistance in other possibility's the letter itself is merely a delusion one way or the other this is all driving me over the edge) Thanks to the modern day political decisions for my best interests which I find to be doing the total opposite.

Only in the good ole' USA am I so lucky to have this great option. I am not Lucky to have Medicare as I am on Disabity and PAID for this Benifit which is being disabled no way in my opinion a form of Luck. Also, I am on Medicaid as I live so far below poverty level that I qualify for being disabled and poor. So I am not LUCKY to have medicaid either. I would gladly exchange it all in for a healthy mind, body and state of which I am not Chronically Disabled and be a productive member of society.

I am not sorry for anything I Have said as it is how I feel and I am supposed to be honest with my feelings. Regardless, I am having my resourses available to me cut left and right unoticed by the general public or sugar coated. No Front page news headlines when earlier this year my co-payment for generic prescriptions went up in a 500% increase, per prescription as to say.... forget it I am too opressed and tired to even go on about this.

Treat the condition and in the same hand make the person who is supposed to be 'best interest' looked out for only worry more and go further insane from their help.

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