Estee,
You wrote,[..feel terrible...bad day...angry...what to do....scared of getting into trouble...sick with fear...].
I would like to offer you support from my perspective if you wish, but could you clarify the following?
A. What kind of trouble are you scared of getting into?
B. What could be the source of your anger?
C. If you are seeking therapeutic dialog, from what perspective, if any, are you limiting any discourse to?
Lou