Hey there KrzyKris, it's nice to meet you

Well done for taking the step of posting, it's quite scary isn't it? Especially when confidence is low.

Hey man I know exactly what you mean about the shower. I had it for a couple of years. I tried to explain to my boyfriend at the time and he thought I was an idiot. He just couldn't understand it because he thought showering was great, a nice thing to do. I just shut up about the shower thing after that.

Anyway, I figured that it was something to do with procrastination or putting off the beginning of my day. I guess I knew that once I had had a shower I would have to do something about my life, go out and do something with the day/try and interact with others which I knew would be painful and that the longer I put off having a shower the more time I could spend switched off, in front of the TV or trancing out staring at the wall - just switching off.

NOwadays I reckon I've got over getting in the shower, I can pretty much jump in without thinking, it's more the next stage of getting dressed which is more of a problem for me. It seems to take every bit of determination and willpower some days and it can have me on the verge of tears but I agree that once I've got past this and I am ready to face the day I feel so much better.

I think a book I read called Self-Help for the nerves really helped me get over the shower thing, I don't recall the author right now, I can find it for you if you like. The author really hit home when she said that you will almost certainly feel better if when you wake up you GET up and that once you have had a shower and tea you will feel much better also.
I guess I couldn't figure this out myself, I was constantly thinking that perhaps I would feel better if I stayed in bed or that I shouldn't try and get ready because it was too stressful but I believe she is right!!!

Jesus I've blabbed on a bit tonight, I'll stop now. Hope this is helpful. Thanks for your post
marie x