Ok, so yesterday I was thinking about taking an ax to all of my stuff see my post

"what the F*** is going on with me"

today I feel nothing. It feels like Limbo. I have never had an experience that was so intense as yesterday, and I was wondering if I could have a more severe episode again soon.

I think I have been in a weird cycle for many years now. Look at my unfinished website trying to describe this

http:www.FlashObsessions.com

I think that this might be describing hypomanic episodes in my life. I'm not sure. During these times my brain will not stop with ideas but I am almost paralyized when it comes to taking action. I probably would not go to bed during these times, but my fiancee would be upset if I stayed up so I lay down and roll around all night with the thoughts. I have never had violent thoughts before the last two days. These thoughts are always Project ideas and such. Or some big plan about getting super organized.

It seems like I get these flash obsessions for many weeks - and then I get depressed and have no interested in anything at all. It's hard to tell what is going on when it is happening.

What are your experiences? Are they anything like this. I have not been diagnosed. Do you think I could have an episode worse then the last two days, Is it progressive?