Thanks for all of your comments and support.

I like the idea of bringing a friend fayerody...and I will have to see into that.

Also...Septembermom, I understand what you are saying when you say:

" Why stick around and make ourselves even more miserable? We don't HAVE to. You have the same choice"

I have thought of that too many times...but I have always been taught that the, "family before oneself" rule. I do live on my own, and I am an adult who can make my own decisions...but I dunno, my family is extremely pensive when it comes to these things. I guess what I'm saying is that I feel obligated to go even though my personal desires says not to.

Should the family be an obligation? Should I just say "forget it" and do what I want because of things that happen in the past?

This is the arguement my parents usually bring up. To them, It all comes down to me forgetting what happened back then and moving on.

In situations like these I feel like everyone is telling me to move on from the past and stop complaining (even though I try my hardest do not talk about these issues.)

Thanks once again for all the sound advice...I find I need it more and more these days.