I've been married 4 x's. I have a sister that's gay. I have never had a good relationship with a man. I've often thought if I'm mean't to be with a woman.
But then there is the issue of I wouldn't want a woman who prefers to dress like a man nor act like one.
I know this didn't help. But yes as Michele#3 said 'bisexual / therapist.
It's nothing to be ashamed of.
I do know that a lot of women who have been sexually abused are gay. And I can understand that!