wow, lfmn, you have a great way of expressing yourself. i'm wondering if you're not experiencing some mood lifts even tho you are still depressed. it happened to me like that. it scared me cause i didn't know what it was. pdoc said my meds were trying to lift my mood. for me that was encouraging. so hope it is the same for you and you can go up those stairs.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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