(((((((Medicated)))))))

Welcome, Seaswept!
Tell me about it! Try the "zone out"-- trying to trick mind into staying half-sleep, then try the "Stop!". All to no avail. Waking up to obsessive thoughts is very annoying. (It must be extra annoying to have them be about small things you can't remember, Clive!) It might be assumed mine are about recent events. They're not.

Had to laugh the laugh of irony this morning turning computer on. Email comes up... PC Newsletter. Title?
"Sleepless Nights Could be a Sign of Mental Distress"

D'ya think?!!!

At least I laughed.

Am.... feeling annoyed with Wake and Obsess. Feeling guilty. For likely precipitating the thing I obsess over, not knowing how to handle it and realizing a lot of the confusion of what to do/not do/say goes waaaay back... Also feeling like I ought to just not talk --at all-- sometimes (apropos of nothing really...I just get that way from time to time). Ironic, eh?

Sounds not great -- and in a way, it isn't, but at least these generally dog me only in these stupid Wake and Obsess sessions. Rest of the time's been pretty decent, but for anxiety. Finishing (hopefully! ) the costume today, which is both enjoyable and...well...doing art and creative things is my major (sometimes only) source of self-esteem, so it's good having something going, you know? (But really, no worries, I AM doing quite well and certainly far better than I could ever imagine. Have to chalk it up to meds. Wow.)

for everyone