Hi Larakeziak
Im in UK,
I asked my psych for a straight forward list of what to do in a suicidal crisis, and he was f***ing useless! but after phoneing all the crisis lines they all said the same thing, which is phone out of hours GPs for a referal to the emergency psychs, or go to A&E
I must admit it seems really strange to go to A&E and say, I havent done anything ...yet!
I am sure they would rather you went in before you did any damage than try to sort out the damage AND they probs behind it.

I am very much in the same place as you at the moment, and in the UK. I will keep checking on here tonight if you want to PM