Jesse came online (my ex) meaning he didn't block me like last time. I could talk to him right now if i wanted, tell him the truth to the lies he thinks are real.. but I don't want to but I'm trembling so bad, I can't stop >_<'

I might end up talking to him just to make the shaking stop.. but I can't do thatt and i can't make myself delete him now that i know he hasn't blocked me.. ugghhh hate thisss