If your can't call your therapist for support then you should consider other things like calling a suicide prevention line. If you google suicide you will find several phone numbers. I know that my psychologist is scheduled every day, every hour so expecting her to me my day to day support person is not an option for her. I can call her if I am close to suicide and she talks me through what to do (usually go to the hospital). Perhaps you need to think about if your demands on her time are reasonable.