In 5 more days.. on the 6th of November it will be my sister's first wedding anniversary.. it is also exactly one year since Mark told me he didn't love me anymore (yeah great day for him to tell me!! - I didn't go to the wedding but have a constant reminder when my sister celebrates!).

This yeah has flown by - time heals right? Then why are my emotions still all over the place.

I just want to cry, scream and curl up into a little ball and hide from the world. I am one year older than when my life fell apart and so far have not trully succeeded in putting it back together.

The emotions I am feeling are/seem rational - the sadness, frustration, anger, desparation and fear. Well perhaps not the fear

I thought my life was getting back into a manageable state.. then Louis.

Why do emotions and feelings have the power to hurt so deeply? How do you stop feeling?