Ok you want to hear the truth? I was off balance, always worried about what others thought of me because I didn't feel as strong as they were even though I did well in school. My personal life was not what I wanted it to be. My relationships were not healthy. I think I didn't feel good about myself so I settled for less than what I deserved. I was dependent on others because I was unstable. I would impulsively do things I later regretted. I spent money foolishly and extended myself to the point of exhaustion. Sure I had a lot of friends and my coworkers and bosses loved how hard I worked but it was not good for me. Then I was diagnosed with bipolar. I wish I could say I started the meds and everything was great after that but that isn't true. Things got better little by little. At first I didn't totally believe the diagnosis and finally went off meds which was a disaster. Now I am eight years from my diagnosis and life is good for me. I am stable. The impulsive behaviors are few and far between. I feel at peace with myself and others. I don't feel so dependent on others and people can't push my buttons like they used to. I could not go back to those highs and lows. I have to say there was period of adjustment where my life felt sort of boring because all I knew was how I used to be which would never be boring! Now I don't think I am boring at all. I just had to get used to life without the roller coasters!