I'm alone.....have no one, except my elderly father. I'm 50 yrs old, lost my mother 5 yrs ago to cancer. She was my only friend. Have no siblings, no children and have never been married. I don't trust people....I've been hurt and only know people who use me or decieve me.

I hate to say this, but I don't think my father really cares about me, if he does, it seems like it's only for his own benifit. He acts like he loves me, he helps me out when I'm in a bind....but, I also feel used. He's almost 90, but he is capable of taking care of himself. I help him when he needs help...like cooking and cleaning. I live here with him because I fiancially can't find my own place to live. I'm so depressed. I'm afraid of being alone. No one calls me, no one cares about me! I only know how to work, having fun or getting involved with church, or organizations are out of the question.

Right now, I can't help but cry. I need someone to talk to, but have no one. My father knows I'm sad and lonely but he could care less. I just gave him his dinner, now he sits in his chair and watches tv. The only words that came out of his mouth after he ate, was to ask me if I knew how to cook something he wanted to try for tomorrows dinner. I was doing dishes, threw the pan down and ran to my room and cryed a blue streak.

All's I need is someone who cares about me, who gives a crap about me and not think of me as a walking meal ticket. I'm so scared and lonely.....please someone help me!!!!! I can't write anymore, I can't see from all the tears.