I wish I had some wonderful words of wisdom for you. The only thing I can I offer is to let you know that you are not alone. I am right there in that rut with you. I am going over the same bad stuff over & over, strugglingling to find a reason to wait until my next appoitment tomake some sense of all this mess that makes up my life. My instatinct is to just withdraw from all of it. Never leave the house except for doctors appts again. People hurt people. i just can't get over it. Can't get past it. It saddens me. It angers me. It frustrates me. It depresses me. It sickens me. I hate humans. I hate being a human. I hate being me. There is no way out.
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Originally Posted by jazzy123456
angry, angry, angry...though...i am. and i usually want to punch someone in the face when i feel this way...what do you do when you feel overwhelmed and KNOW you should distract yourself...but, instead, you dwell and dwell on the problem...even though you know you shouldn't! Isn't that horrible! lol. i know what i could do...but, i just won't do it...i could watch t.v. or play on the computer or eat something, instead i choose to think and think ...dwell and dwell...maybe when a situation feels unbearable underneath and it feels like it just needs to be resolved, nothing inside of you is satisfied by the mundane, repititious experiences of life...its like nothing can rest in me until I solve the issue but, I can't solve it until next monday because that is when I see my "T." ...so then its pointless to just sit and dwell and dwell...yet, I do it anyway...why do we do sooo many things that are so bad for us, and we know they are but, we continue doing them???
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