(((((Lacelly)))) Sorry that you didn't get to go if you wanted to go. :-(

It doesn't matter if you think you are not good at doing those things - even if you know you aren't "good" at them - and even if others don't respond to them. The secret to life is just being able to find a way to enjoy a small part of it. Just one thing even. And then don't try to produce anything FOR anyone with it. Just let it be and find a way to enjoy the activity without thinking of what comes of it at all.