I hate myself. I really just want to find someplace to cut and do it. I feel so alone. I feel like my brain is mush. I feel like there isn't any point to it. I'm sitting across from my friend and I still feel like crap. Too many pressures all making me go crazy. I feel like a freak. I can't stand it. I want my life to be over. No one should care about me. I don't deserve it. I can't stand all the people around me.