I have never not been depressed. Started around 4 or 5. Diagnosed 40 years later - therapist said "you've been depressed for so long you wouldn't know what it's like not to be".

Ebbs and flows. Has been very, very bad for the past year.

Always alone and isolated, filled with sadness. But, on the upside I have very strong coping skills that make me appear to be someone that I'm not. So I only share things here - at least I'm trying to share here.