((suzzie))

I agree with the others about it being likely that you dissociated from the experience. I have done the same thing with similar experiences, my T has mentioned my tendency to dissociate when I am recalling events in therapy. I look as though I'm on auto-pilot. No emotions, droning voice (despite what's being described), it is not uncommon to dissociate from experiences like these.

I'm sorry ~ gentle hugs to you.