i had to cut my last message short..sorry i just wanted to let everyone know i was ok...i am never going to go back..many people seem worried i am..but i am not...he has messaged me and has been searching and searching..no way..i am free finally..my children are safe and i will make my life flourish now...the police are using extreme caution because his record is so dangerous..they need the element of surprise..it feels like its taking forever to get anything done..i couldnt go to the hospital because he is active and persistently searching..he sees me and i will be attacked..i know this..there is alot of help here and i am not stepping outside until i know he will not be on the streets....i am free and i am regaining strength..looks like a hard journey but i feel proud to be getting my life back and become whole again..i dont need a man to make me happy..i will learn to make myself happy..no dating for a long time...i feel hopeful...i thank you all from the deepest part of my heart ..till next time