Quote:
Originally Posted by Rohag
Hello, Lonesomedove! Thank you for the first installment of your cry for help. I say "first installment" because, having had no one with whom to really speak, I suppose you have a lot more to share. We can't replace a flesh-and-blood friend, but we're here to listen (read).
Yes. Your 90-year-old father most probably can never serve as the friend and companion you need.
Is this because of the depression itself, life events/traumas, agoraphobia, illnesses, something else? (No need to answer; just trying to throw some thought at your isolation.) You have been used and deceived -- that may be explanation enough.
I wish you well, and please keep posting.
|
Hello....thank you so much for your care and concern. I feel so mixed up at times, then other times I have it all together. The same with my father. When I'm really down, like yesterday, the last thing I needed to hear was what to fix him for the next meal. I wanted understanding and didn't get it. I have a huge weight on me....the fear of being alone. No matter how exasperating my father can be....I'll miss him. I can't stand the thought of being in this house alone, just to hear the echo's of my own voice scares me. Hearing the echo's of my mothers voice and my fathers will haunt me for the rest of my life. It's all my fault, I never ventured too far from home, so I relied on my folks for support as far as friendship. I'm an introvert so making friends is so very hard. I question their motive, especially around this area. I'll stop here with my "book". It's getting too complicated to explain. You're right, I've so much "stuff" penned up inside of me I don't know where to start. Again, with all the hurt people are going through, thank you so much for taking an interest in me.....
