Azalysa,
I was off work for 5 months and the thought of going back scared the beejesus out of me. Like you I worried what people would think, what had been said and so on.I was also worried about how I would cope and I knew i was going to be tired.

What happened..................................
Well it was fine. My boss arranged for me to be part time for the first 2 weeks and that helped. I also decided to come clean with my colleagues and told them that I had been suffering from depression. They were all fine. No one treated me like a lepor and suddenly everyone was telling me that they either had similar problems or knew someone who had. It took me a while to get my confidence back, cos I had lost it all. But it all came back and within 2 months I was back to my same confident self. I was a little wiser though about what made me unwell and avoided those situations.

Here I am 5 years later and stil making sure i take care of myself. It really can be done. You can go back and things can work out. It just takes a real leap of faith to beleive it. I was a wreck when I went back but I got through it and Im glad i went back. It was the difference between living in the twilight zone and reality. Getting back to work meant a routine, it meant a definate start and finish to my day and i got my confidence back bit by bit.
I hope it works out for you. Please let us know how you get on when the time comes.

all the girls