Figured I should add my thoughts on the topic while I am here... I agree that while this is scary, it is definitely something not to be overly concerned about. Discuss it with your T. Thoughts are just thoughts... they are not "planning" and they are not "feelings." I wouldn't be at all concerned unless those "thoughts" were accompanied by "feelings" of comfort.

When I was in danger, that was how I knew I was in danger. I may have thoughts now but I don't have plans to act on them. When I am really depressed, those thoughts bring me comfort, the appear to be a solution to my pain, and that is when I know I have to talk to someone and get help.

I am aware of and can recognize these feelings and identify them early on... other than my first experience, I have not since ever felt the need to call a hotline because it never gets that far... I am able to recognize the "warning signs" and seek help before it ever really gets to the "planning" stage.

A large part of dealing with these illnesses is understanding our symptoms and triggers and being able, with experience, to identify them early and apply our coping skills as early as possible.