you'll find that there are many here that share the same hurt. it's a true hurt.

i didn't realize until recently that i'd spent my entire life trying to fill the mother's needs so that she'll just be something, anything, for me. it never worked. she was a bottomless pit.

at 42, it's my time. now, i'm grieving so much, so much wasted time.

i hope the same is not for you.

please be safe.

ps...are you in t at all?

kd