(((tiff))) You ar Not nothing. When you are in an abusive relationship...especially a long one...they have continually beat you down. Not just physically...but emotionally. When you constantly hear how worthless you are and you can't do anything right...it is hard not to believe it after awhile. Let me tell you..that is not who you are. That is who he has tried to make you be. You have got to pull yourself out of it. You are strong and you can do it. I agree that you need to talk to shelters and get a plan in place. They don't involve social services. You can't keep letting him fear you into staying. I really am worried about you and hope you find the strenght I know is inside of you. Keep us posted