I am feeling highly inadequate and unsure today. I keep thinking that maybe I am not as capable or as qualified to do things as I thought. I don't know. I want to feel good about what I am doing and have done. But if it doesn't bear any fruits what does that say. If I keep spinning in circles if I am going no where. I would like to make something of myself be someone. I don't know right now if that is going to happen. I suppose I could have a back up plan to this feeling of imminent failure. But what would I do and would it be better than just sitting and toiling away with what I already do. I don't think I can do what I already do forever. There needs to be something more. I keep seeing others becomeing more. I don't know how to handle this feeling. Its an old feeling I've pushed away. I am not supposed to feel like this anymore. I deserve a chance just as much as the next person. I don't want to feel worthless anymore. I don't want to feel as if I am undeserving. I realize I have ambivilance over it all. Who doesn't. For some reason right now I feel as if I may already be a failure. Always being surpassed overlooked outshadowed. Treated as if I don't know anything or how to do anything. I really don't enjoy this