While it's painful to be at rock bottom (And you've had a LOT going on) it is something that will pass. And unfortunately most of us with BP have to push through from time to time.
I understand you still have a lot on your plate (I used to miss a LOT of exams because I'd been to depressed to study.) And I had the priviledge of being a long-distance student.
But you just need to take care of yourself and get strong and healthy again.
We're here every step of the way with you.