i think that God has made all our moods this bipolar stuff to make us more special. so that we can meditate and come closer to Him. When i have nowhere to go, i try to pray it is hard to pray but i have to push myself. it is so sad to realize that with these moods, i cannot do anything. can't even pray........God have mercy on our souls..........I believe and know for 1000% that there is a God out there and all this suffering He is putting us through has been already written in our destinies but He can also give us strength...............Praise the Lord, please be merciful to us, your children