I made an appointment with the T. I can get back in Monday but am talking to the pdoc every other day in the meantime; he has actually been very supportive. I just didn't remember it sucking all hope out. I appreciate the suggestions and will try to follow through with some of them today. They are really good ideas, brain is just in such a whirlwind. Let you know how it goes. Matter of fact will trying going for a walk now, not later. THANK YOU!