((((Fresia)))) It will get better. It will seem like forever but it will pass. You were pushing very hard there and didn't have much choice. You aren't a terrible friend, you were there when it truly mattered, when she needed someone to take her place and she couldn't be there. That is true firendship, dear. Youwere there. Just be secure in that and find some peace. It's ood you have and excellent t. Let him/her take care of you and do the same for yourself. You know, I NEVER really remember all of how bad it was when I hit bottom. I remember hurting, but not all the nuances. Funny how that gets lost. HUGGGGGS again. HUnag in there. You will come out of this.