i fight the urge quite a bit to go get the steak knife & start in on my arms. my moms never approved of me & when we were on vacation couple months ago i kept getting those looks & finally just grabbed one of the knives in the condo & started. felt so ashamed & disgusted. over 2 months ago & just now fading. need to get a good jog in tomorrow to release tension & write my trash out in a letter to t.