I was 10:
a girl came on to me sexually.
Now, I'm 21.
And the porn that interests me is girl on girl.
where one girl violates another.
is this just a coincidence?
my problem is, I really can't remember how bad the experience was
when I was little
it could have been just kissing and fondling.
or, it could have been just fondling and nothing else.
I remember snapshots of it and specific words.
so, it just makes it hard.
cuz now I am extremley attracted to women
and I don't know if its because porn can like
change someones mind
or if its because of what happened to me
or maybe I just overanalyzed it all
I think I did...and then it made me even more confused.
the thing is, when i first looked at porn I had no idea
what would interest me
but, i immediatly only found interest in girl on girl
and usually a violation aspect to it.
also, I've never had a boyfriend.
so maybe whenever that happens all of this will clear up.
however...I am 21 and never had a boyfriend, so I am afraid it'll be
too late and I will be too attracted to girls by then???
I mean I have had the opportunity but I always turn them down.
help please!
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